Scared...

Yeah so that first blog i wrote about two weeks ago and so now i'm going to update on my feelings...

School is going crazy...i'm only taking 5 classes and only have to go to 4 cause one of them is only a random class i go to once a month...out of those 5 classes...i believe i'm failing 2 and passing the other 3 with 2 "A's" and 1 "B". I'm scared to death that i'm not going to pass my classes and graduate...i wont know until that final week of classes...and then comes the day of graduation and then i probably won't even know...great... i'll be stressed until the end.

Besides school...I have to think about the future....where do i go? i mean I'm not really wanting to jump into a career at such a young age.. i mean i'm only 20 and 2/3rd...lol (i'm not counting down...) and graduating school a year early so it's like i dont know where to go...my parents want me to do one thing...i want to just rest up and get some experience by continuing my work and trying to move up at my job in walmart...while living with my parents to pay off my bills and try to get on my feet...seems logical right? except i have loans to pay off in the next 10 years...(about 500 a month...for the next 10 years...) why does school cost so so much!

i know this blog is meaningless but that's the whole point...i only started it cause i need someplace to just rant...ramble...throw my brain against the wall...